I haven't learned yet.

partying and getting drunk :-) and lifting weights and exersizing alot :-) sounds a bit wierd - i know but it actually made me better in all aereas of life that needed comunication.

And basicly going out of my comfort zone. When that became easy and non threatning, then press the action again.

meh, who knows. I was totally aries till I hit my teens, and basicly went to become a negative capricorn type of person and grew into a nice blend around the age of 19. And now Im just a very high spirited and positive (aries) realist (cap moon).

Press the comfort zone. Thats it :-)

Sorry if I played down your problem. Wich emotions do you have problems expressing? Are you able to laugh in public?

Well, as far as I can tell about trusting in your feelings is ... to listen to the inner voice as most importantly. When you hear it, you'll FEEL it. You feel and you know what feels, and what is essentially right. Not all feelings are really appropriate to act on, true. I know that i would definately do well to delve at least a bit into philosophy. Considering some of my feelings are at odds with one another. But, the SOUL knows what it needs. You know what you desire, what is burning at your deepest most innermost core, what you love, what you dream about and aspire to cherish as your own. Where we are sometimes "lost" is how to stop feeling subjectified by our most powerful feelings...

What i notice most about my feelings is they are sometimes strike SO deeply and so quick, and i know that I need discipline in toning it to a dull on ONLY the undesirable feelings which spark within.

I'm not sure if therapy is the right course, I believe it may be wise to think about the sort of affect we have on others. One thing has worked for me is focus on the better, more changing aspects of myself (or you could look at the chart, to find your "strengths") for example, Pluto is conj. the 4th house cusp of my chart.. So i'm constantly experiencing intense, life changing experiences in the root of life, generally having to do with home or family but 4th house also represents the psyche. So fortunately I have learned to integrate my emotional "issues" as we might like to say, into the dramatic, changing forces of nature to allow myself to progress and evolve as do the prevailing tides.

The Sun, assuming it is positively influenced by the planets is another place in the chart I look to see where we can "shine" or express our true selves. How about Venus, or Mars? It's jsut the way you look at your chart and how it reflects your personality, apologies if I'm entirely biased and this makes no sense, it's just helped me to get through some really difficult and painful aspects of myself.

This placement of the Moon is so heavy, and it often feels like no one is going to lift the weight off for you, even THOUGH we know it is none others position to do so, it just feels something different, something no one else can truely understand.

But I do beleive there are times we go through life which create beautiful and essential changes, yet, they are not always easy.

We need to look into now, see your own reflection, and swim in it. Do all you can to go in with a pure heart. But pure is raw and unpolluted, unfiltered and indescriminating affection. Devotion without any limitation... I've been "hurt" and afraid many times but when I took the time away from what brings me down, and I mean eeeeeeeeeverything that pains you. No holding on to empty hearts, let go of those who you know decieve you. Those who are too "busy", impassionate or impatient to seemingly care. We all must face our own demons WITHIN ourselves. How you decide to do this is up to you, but you must follow your heart, give in to your deepest, most inspiring desires. There is a reason God has blessed us with the virtue of Love. I've felt it before and I will fill it again. I'm always making a promise to myself that I will not neglect my hearts cry and CREATE the love as it will never be experienced if it is not materialized itself.

"Time is a sort of river of passing events, and strong is its current; no sooner is a thing brought to sight than it is swept by and another takes its place, and this too will be swept away." ~Marcus Aurelius

The more I become aware of my own mortality and the less of my apparent transparencies... the less I am the person inside of myself but the one beyond me, the one I so desire to be but is always teasing and taunting me, dipping and darting out and away from my grasp, it's like my soul looking at me and telling me this is where I need to be, there is no hesitation, it's pure love, and pure embodiement of my soul. It's everywhere you are and everywhere you need to be.

Things will fall into place, I am sure of this. A few Saturn transits sort of "put me in my place" so to speak in the last few years... Also Pluto is heading into Capricorn as of this next year! So, you should definately expect to be seeing changes in as suggested by whatever is in your Capricorn, assumedly the Moon, and whatever else.

Anywayz this is a great post, I hope to hear more along the way~

Much luv
Jeska

yes. i do not show my emotions a lot of the time.

I have spent much of my life 'reserving' emotional displays because soemtimes it just seems so out of control. But, I'm growing out of that. I'm coming to realize that while finding the right outlet for ceratin emotions is absolutely a good thing, being open and epxressing my feelings in the moment is also a good thing. Perhaps for me it's about finding a balance between the full-on emotional burst and the detached expression of what I am feeling. Of coruse, the positive emotions are much easier to express for most of us, but all emotions need to be expressed in some way.

For the most part, Katey, I agree with you, but only knowing that I am moving toward healthy balanced expression. Maybe that's the key for you too? Another facet that I consider is that I have to be in the presense of those I trust before I truly express. Trusting some one with mu emotional expressions is a huge "opening of teh heart" for me.
I think our emotions are a crutial part of our humanity and simply must be expressed; much like we simply must breath. Learning how/when/where....well....there's the rub, heh?